Thursday, August 23, 2012

Finding my Zen

I grind my teeth.  A lot.  I'm not talking just sleep-grinding either, I grind those puppies all dang day long.  To the point I've destroyed three fillings and had two crowns put in.  Oh yeah.  The last one was ground down almost to the nerve endings inside the tooth.  It's a habit I just can NOT break either because I do it subconsciously.  I've tried mouth guards at night, but I wake up with them on the floor.  I try to stop myself during the day when I catch my jaw clenched.  But over all I just cannot stop grinding.  So, I need to trace this back to the cause of the whole shebang.

I'm a nervous person by nature.  I may not always seem it, but I am.  I used to suffer severe panic attacks but thankfully I don't anymore.  If I do they're mild and very few and far between.  Overall I'm calmer, but I'm still a bit of a nervous nellie!  I don't want to just sit back and say "Well that's who I am, I guess." either.  So overall I'm working on making myself a calmer person.

Aside from the tooth grinding I have chronic pain in my back and shoulders from being tense all day without realizing it.  I've gotten SO, so much better with my posture and how I sit at work.  It has helped tremendously already.

It's going to be an ongoing process likely forever but I'm working on it.  When I find my shoulders up around my ears, I let them drop.  I take time about every hour to stretch and take deep breaths.  I'm cleaning out all the clutter in my life, physically, mentally and emotionally.  That right there has done wonders for me.

All this has helped me in ways I didn't think it would.  Aside from not having panic attacks anymore and slowly becoming less nervous, I have more energy, I'm sick less, my mood is higher, I deal with stressful situations at work better, and I just all over feel better.

I'm not perfect, and I'm certainly no Zen Buddhist, and Lord knows I still have my days of stress levels through the roof.  But I'm getting better.  Happier.  Calmer.

Now to try and work on this dang self-confidence issue....

1 comment:

  1. Good luck. Moving house helps with finding your Zen. It takes a while to get sorted, but you will.