Monday, August 17, 2015


As I promised in my video on my last post, I wanted to share some photos of the costumes I made for a show at our theatre.

My craft room is and has been coated in fake fur, but I'd say it was worth it.

I can only lay claim to the mouse and rabbit.  The llama was made by the costume designer.

Friday, August 14, 2015

Friday Five!

I felt the urge to do one of these today, but neither of my usual sources had a list that spoke to me.  So I'm going to do a random list from the Random Question Generator and see what I get!
So let's see where we go in today's:

Totally Random Friday Five!

1) What is the one thing you cannot live without?
Love.  Hokey answer I know, but love.  Thankfully I know there will always be someone who loves me and I will never stop loving my family so I don't think this will be something I have to deal with.

2) What is the longest you've gone without sleep?
A weekend.  I've gone a couple times to the Sci-Fi Movie Marathon up at Case Western in Cleveland.  I successfully made the entire weekend without sleep.  I think at one point I went to a corner and laid down but couldn't sleep anyway.

3) What's in your fridge?
A ton of veggies, some hummus, about 10 eggs, and a couple bottles of salad dressing.  I think that's it.  We have a massive fridge that seems silly given our usual sad lack of food in the house.

4) If you could invent a holiday, what would it be?
National Nap Day!!!  Everyone is encouraged to stay home and by lazy for a day.  Just enjoy spending time with your family and be lazy together.  Then again, I guess that's Thanksgiving.

5) Who was the last person you called or texted?
Mom.  She and dad are off this morning on a trip with their Harley group, so I wished them safe travels and sent my love.

I hope everyone is well, much love!

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

A Random Thought on Grieving

My mom and I went to our first meeting with the Compassionate Friends, an organization for group support for grieving parents and siblings.  I think it was really great for both of us.  But it got me thinking about something that's bothered me before and is bothering me again.

It's that moment when the grief is no longer shared with everyone around you and becomes your own.  You look around and don't see all those faces looking at you with care and love and the words of "How are you today?  Do you need anything?"  When everyone around you has gone back to their lives, but you haven't.  The world around you keeps going, but you're standing still.  You feel so completely alone.

You want to cry and and scream at everyone "I'm still grieving, why aren't you?!" How can the world just keep going on when my loved one is still gone and I still hurt.

I know very well that no one has likely forgotten I've suffered a loss.  But it's not in the forefront of their minds like it is mine.  And why should it be?  And maybe they've had a loss of their own that they're dealing with.  It makes me feel so selfish, but so lonely.

Being in that room and knowing every single person there knows grief and knows what we feel and is feeling it too.  That alone was worth the trip.

Friday, July 17, 2015

Friday Five

It's been awhile since I've done one of these, so I figured why not?

This is a list from My usual source from a few weeks ago.  The most recent couple didn't seem all that enticing.  

Anyway, let's get down with today's

Under Friday Five!

1) What goes under grape jelly?
Seriously?  SERIOUSLY?!  Unless you have a peanut allergy, peanut butter.  Peanut butter ALWAYS!!!  Although I had a roommate in college once that put grape jelly on her Pierogies.  That's honestly disgusting.

2) What goes under your car?
The street?  My mechanic?  This question is weird, NEXT!

3) What gets under your skin?
Blatant racism and/or homophobia.  Seriously.  It's 2015, not 1950.  And I'll leave it at that.

4) What is the underlying cause of your latest underlying headache?
Myself most likely.  Nothing should be bothering me at this point but I'm certainly having my days of irritability and/or frustration at very small things.  I think we all do at some point though.

5) What do your underlings think of you?
I don't know that I have any underlings.  I'd say my cat, but let's face it, she's in charge of me.  My co-workers all seem to adore me, so that's good.  They're not really underlings though.

Wow, that list was kinda boring.  Sorry.  But hey at least I did it!!  

I hope everyone has something awesome to look forward to this weekend.  Much love.

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

New Video and catch up

I'm not going to make excuses or anything.  I'm just having a lot of trouble focusing on anything right now and my brain is really scattered.  And, I'm not going to deny, I've been having trouble coping with my brother's death.  I've been horribly depressed which means when I have spare time, I've just been staring mindlessly at the TV or reading or sleeping.  I'm trying to get back into life again here, slowly but surely.  I can't promise my usual weekly posts, but I will pop in when I can.

Anyway, I posted a video on my new fauxdori and #OneBookJuly2015.  So check it out and hopefully look forward to more videos to come!

Thursday, June 18, 2015

6 Habits You Need for and Organized Life

I don't typically link to other blogs here.  I don't know why I don't, but I haven't much in the past.  But I read a post today that was so simply perfect I HAD to share.  So before I blather on, just take a moment and read it.  Clicky Right Here!!

I read a lot of blogs on organizing and minimalism and simple living, etc.  And a lot of them are just reiterating things I already know or have read in 6 other places.  With the occasional nugget of something new.  Still they keep me focused and heading in the right direction and a good reminder is always nice.

But this post gives you the best starting points and habits to build a more organized life, but it doesn't just say "put your sh*t away."  It gives you reasons WHY these things really work and push you in the right direction.

And if you don't already, you really should follow her blog.  It's definitely one of my favorites.

Thursday, May 28, 2015

It's Not Good-bye, right?

I've been staring at a blank entry page here for a couple of days.  I have a million and one thoughts in my head, but have no idea what to say.

My big brother passed away this past weekend.  He was 40.  My only sibling.

When we were little he'd say "Why do you think mom and dad stopped having kids after you, Nikki?"  And I'd say "Why do you think they tried again after you?"  We fought all the time, but we loved each other as siblings do.  We'd both make comments when we fought about wishing we were an only child.  Neither of us actually wanted that, obviously.

My heart breaks in a way I cannot explain.  Rest with the Lord, Scott.  Big brother.